Open your flaws

The first step to being happy is being open. 

Be open to your flaws because they are apart of you.

I'm dorky, I love laying on my bed for too long, I talk without thinking and it gets me into trouble, A LOT. I don't eat properly most of the time and I hate running. I've VERY bad at spelling and I repeat myself over and over. Oh, and I talk WAY too much. I own all these facts about myself. 

"Owning" these facts about myself doesn't mean I'm not going to eat healthy. It doesn't mean I'm never going to go for long walks instead of a run. It for-sure doesn't mean I don't give good advice. I also know how to use spell-check. These are also apart of me. 

A song randomly came on while writing this blog and it made writing this that much better. 

"Human"by Christina Perri 

The lyrics fix so well with that I'm trying to say right now! Kind of creepy how music can do that, huh?

 "I can hold my breath,

I can bite my tongue, I can stay awake for days,

If that's what you want,

Be your number one" 

^ This is how I've been feeling lately. I did even notice until I looked at these lyrics. I always feel like I say the wrong statement. Or that I didn't say enough. I didn't act the "right" way in the situation or I didn't choice the "right" option. I've been trying to change myself for dumb reason like wanting to be "cool" or "spontaneous". I've been going against what my "inner-self" thinks and acts.  

"Your words in my head, knives in my heart,You build me up and then I fall apart,'Cause I'm only human"

Lately I've noticed when people don't "like" me. They don't "like" how loud I talk or what I have to say. Which is fine, but why am I focusing on what they think? I shouldn't care what these people think! I'm my own person and I shouldn't have to change for them. I found out someone didn't like me recently and I felt "relived". I think thats extremely weird, but I thought hard about it and it was because I was always trying to "say the right things" around them or trying and get them to "like" me as myself, so I would change myself. (yes, I know how backwards that is) When I truly think about that person, I feel bad for them. They hardly like anyone and hide behind "acting" nice to your face. I find that very incredibly sad. This person would whine about how they didn't have any friends and then turn down invites because "they weren't cool enough" or "too cool" for them. 

I want to be the person that looks for the best in people. I also want friends that will look for the best in me. I want them to help me become the person that I can be. I don't need them "picking" at my flaws and telling me what to change, just because they don't like it. There is a difference between helping someone become a better person rather than just changing them because they do something that annoys you.
So, the first tip to being happy, be happy with yourself.
Know your own flaws and work with them Don't let people make you feel bad about those flaws, they are apart of you that makes you, you. 

Be proud of the person you are and who you hope to become/grow.